001. welcome to my world

[findmyownreason.livejournal.com]

...who were they...?

and dammit! those were my only pair of goggles!

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[no-hometown.livejournal.com]

Stalking? I'm afraid I have no idea what you mean.

[He closes his eyes. Why is he reasoning with a voice in his head claiming to be that of an infantryman, yet not an infantryman? Perhaps it's because he wants to remain perfectly calm. After what happened to Angeal and Genesis... Maybe he's been working too hard.

Maybe he should tell Zack about this. There's no one else left for him to talk to, but they've all been so preoccupied lately.]

You were with Zack, when he went looking for Genesis there. That was weeks ago.

[findmyownreason.livejournal.com]

You -

huh

...should I feel bad?

You're behind the times. That was over seven years ago.

You shouldn't be in my head seven years ago.

[no-hometown.livejournal.com]

[Now he's talking to an infantryman from the future? Wonderful.]

From my perspective, that is the present day.

I assure you, I have no desire to be in your head or anyone else's. I only wish to finish this paperwork and return to my other duties.

I should leave ShinRa, this is ridiculous.

[findmyownreason.livejournal.com]

leave...?

I wonder if that would have changed anything?

everything?

You've considered leaving ShinRa?

[no-hometown.livejournal.com]

I have.

The fact that I'm admitting this to a voice in my head makes me more inclined to think that's a good idea.

What should I stay for now?

...they went mad and died...

[findmyownreason.livejournal.com]

...

that's... I never knew that...

...

what would you do if you left?

[no-hometown.livejournal.com]

That is the problem. I cannot simply leave.

SOLDIER needs me, and ShinRa would hunt me down.

There would be repercussions.

[findmyownreason.livejournal.com]

bet it beats the repercussions of if you stay

Shinra's pretty good at hunting down rouge specimens...

if I say anything will it make things worse?

worse than Nibelheim?







Have you thought about trusting Tseng?

[no-hometown.livejournal.com]

Tseng? I don't trust the Turks. How can I trust anyone?

Except maybe Zack.

My friends betrayed me, and now they're gone. They died. Those scientists treated them like nothing but objects. Mere fodder for experiments.

No, I'm alone.

[findmyownreason.livejournal.com]

Hey!

Knock that shit off.

that's what gets you in trouble in the first place

Of course you can trust Zack. He's Zack.

...

And if you betray him the way your friend's betrayed you, it's going to break his oversized heart.

[no-hometown.livejournal.com]

They murdered my friends.

Why shouldn't I be angry?

[A sigh.]

You're right, such emotions aren't productive. I must focus on the tasks at hand.

I thought Angeal was Angeal. I have no intention of betraying anyone.

[findmyownreason.livejournal.com]

I didn't say being mad was wrong. I said the whole 'I'm all alone' bullshit was wrong.

[hello, Sephiroth. Let me introduce you to Cloud's unaware hypocrisy. Luckily that's in your future.]

Zack needs you. otherwise he ends up dead And you have a lot of people that count on you to be reasonable when ShinRa's not unless you go batshit, in which case, ShinRa has to start being the reasonable ones and that's unnatural Fuck ShinRa and their scientists but don't you dare fuck over Zack. Angeal already did that. Zack deserves better.