Mizuno Ami☿Mercury (
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apassingthought2012-05-01 07:38 am
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There should be some meaning to my life
I won't be able to care for Mama when she grows older.
I never had anyone near me growing up. Papa was gone, Mama was busy, and I didn't make friends. When I thought I finally did, it was a lie and they weren't the friends I was looking for. When I finally found the ones who could be, I didn't realize it for a long time. Now that I finally see them, is it too late?
There are a lot of places I haven't seen, things I never experienced.
I wanted to be strong enough to fight with them to the end- as a fellow warrior.
But... somehow it feels good to rest right now.
I never had anyone near me growing up. Papa was gone, Mama was busy, and I didn't make friends. When I thought I finally did, it was a lie and they weren't the friends I was looking for. When I finally found the ones who could be, I didn't realize it for a long time. Now that I finally see them, is it too late?
There are a lot of places I haven't seen, things I never experienced.
I wanted to be strong enough to fight with them to the end- as a fellow warrior.
But... somehow it feels good to rest right now.
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If you want to try - to tell them - I'll stay here with you while you do.
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so you're not even going to try?
sure, provoke the stubbornness. XD
And if I did?
maaaaaaybe. Cloud might know her a little bit by this point XD
just maybe. XD
You're right. There are people who'll be angry if I give up, even now - here, and even when I wake up.
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no giving up
Yeah.
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I'll show them there's still something I can do.
want to wrap it up?