There should be some meaning to my life

[waterfell]

I won't be able to care for Mama when she grows older.

I never had anyone near me growing up. Papa was gone, Mama was busy, and I didn't make friends. When I thought I finally did, it was a lie and they weren't the friends I was looking for. When I finally found the ones who could be, I didn't realize it for a long time. Now that I finally see them, is it too late?

There are a lot of places I haven't seen, things I never experienced.

I wanted to be strong enough to fight with them to the end- as a fellow warrior.

But... somehow it feels good to rest right now.

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[histrionic]

All things die.

All important things are lost.

And what did you die for?

[waterfell]

I didn't want the planet to be taken and destroyed. That was the enemy's intent.

[histrionic]

Why did they want to destroy it?

[waterfell]

Ambition.

[histrionic]

Ambition can mean many things, any desire for success, good or ill. That tells me nothing.

[waterfell]

Her ambition was that destruction. There's no reason in it.

[histrionic]

Destroying the world for destruction's sake? A great deal of work for no gain. [He's dubious.]

Some might say the same of me, but they would be mistaken.

[waterfell]

This isn't a mistake.

The shitennou will still fight.

[histrionic]

Yet you've told me nothing. Not that it matters now.

Ah, are those your friends? Your allies?

[waterfell]

My comrades. [It's the first time she's called them that, so simply.]

I should be there fighting with them.

[histrionic]

But you aren't, and you won't be.

That is simply the truth.

[waterfell]

I don't need to be told that. I already know it for myself.

[histrionic]

You said you should be there with them, but if you've died, that is where you should be.

All worlds will die.

[waterfell]

I don't accept that. I finally had people I wanted to be with.

[histrionic]

One moment you say you know you aren't and won't be with them and don't need to be told, and the next you say you don't accept it.

What are they like, these comrades of yours? What do they fight for?

[waterfell]

I understand it. However, I don't want it.

They fight for the planet Earth, ever since the distant past, and now, too. [Fairness compels her to add:] They fight for their own reasons as well.

[histrionic]

From nothingness we come, to same return;
The planets, stars, and fires all go out
For but a moment does each bright light burn
Amid the shadows men have titled Doubt.

[waterfell]

Even a fading star has its last fire before it's gone. If there's something I can do from here, I will.

[histrionic]

There are some who have their last spark, yes. A dying surge.

Do you think you have that power? What do you think you can do?

[waterfell]

I can give that power to the one who can still use it.

[histrionic]

Then why don't you? What are you waiting for?

[waterfell]

I need to know what's happening on Earth.

If we dream, and they dream, can we still see them?

[histrionic]

Earth is not a world I know, but it might be possible. Then again, it might not. Not everyone's dreams can be so easily entered and shared.

[waterfell]

I dreamed of Nephrite a few times, before now. I remember that.