There should be some meaning to my life

[waterfell]

I won't be able to care for Mama when she grows older.

I never had anyone near me growing up. Papa was gone, Mama was busy, and I didn't make friends. When I thought I finally did, it was a lie and they weren't the friends I was looking for. When I finally found the ones who could be, I didn't realize it for a long time. Now that I finally see them, is it too late?

There are a lot of places I haven't seen, things I never experienced.

I wanted to be strong enough to fight with them to the end- as a fellow warrior.

But... somehow it feels good to rest right now.

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[waterfell]

No. I'm sure of it. You have the aura of Sailor Moon.

[secret_of_the_moon]

I don't transform in Sailor Moon.

[Just once and Sailor Moon is just a mistake, not some sort of entity that rules his life.]

[waterfell]

What made you decide that?

[secret_of_the_moon]

It just didn't feel right and I didn't like it. I suppose... I'm just not fitted to be trusted with power.

[waterfell]

No speeches about using it to help your friends and protect everyone?

[secret_of_the_moon]

That kind of power? No. I'll use the strength of my hands for it. I'm a man, not a magical girl that jumps around in a miniskirt and fills the place with rainbows and rabbits.

[He can give speeches, but not about that.]

[waterfell]

So my dreams contain a Sailor Moon with some sense.

[secret_of_the_moon]

[Maybe not, if he had that maybe he would have killed himself once everything started, but he has the feeling it would solve nothing and he doesn't want to die either. He decides to let that pass and focus on Ami again, forget Sailor Moon, this is about Ami.]

Ami-chan, this feeling of emptiness... What have they done to you?

[waterfell]

I lost my life this time. That's what happened.

[secret_of_the_moon]

T-That...

[It can't be. Ami can't die, she can just die like that, it's a thought he can't wrap his mind around. Something he doesn't want to even think of.]

Who did this to you? What's their name, how do they look?

[As if that would fix anything, as if he can do anything. But he wants to know, so he can try. He once managed to have the dream he wanted to and bring Ami to his side there, maybe he can also slip into the dreams of whoever did that to Ami and... Do something.]

[waterfell]

It's a war that will be handled in my world. You don't need to concern yourself with it.

[secret_of_the_moon]

I can concern myself with you, though.

[waterfell]

I never asked for you to. You also won't gain anything from it.

[secret_of_the_moon]

I'm not doing it because you asked or because I can gain anything from it. I do it because I want to, that's all.

[waterfell]

If that's true, do as you wish.

[secret_of_the_moon]

Then it's okay if I stay with you here, right?

[waterfell]

Until you wake up?

[secret_of_the_moon]

[He can't promise that he won't wake up, he's not that foolish.]

And once I fall asleep again. I'll be with you as much as I can. I would say I would find a way to not wake up or to sleep even in class but you probably would scold me for that.

[waterfell]

Don't sleep during class.

[Heh... it's such normal scolding suddenly.]

[secret_of_the_moon]

See? I knew you would say that.

[Light whine.]

Don't worry I won't do it... I'll try to not do it.

[waterfell]

School is important to any future.

[secret_of_the_moon]

I know it is. But some classes are boring.

[You can almost see him pouting.]

[waterfell]

Make an effort to cope with it better.

[It's more than scolding, the only way any form of Sailor Moon, any form of the princess, will move forward is to become a bit stronger in facing hardship.]

[secret_of_the_moon]

I already make efforts. I have been getting better with grades.

[Only because his world's Ami tutors him though and promises him dates of different degrees of length and mood based on his grades. Cue the boy doing his best to get a max grade, which he assumes will lead to a full date and a kiss.]

[waterfell]

It's not enough. If you want to think you'll be ready for what's coming, you need to push yourself more.